Day 9 – Bye, Bye, Bananas: My Elimination Experience

The theme of the diet has been making it my own, and listening to MY body.  Unfortunately, even on Day 9 the headaches are still persisting. What I originally thought was solely due to cutting out caffeine cold turkey, I’ve now considered may be (also in part) to too much chocolate/sugar or not enough water. Perhaps it’s both. As I’ve mentioned, many “typical” elimination experiences eliminate much more than what I decided to do, but Brenen and I have been making adjustments throughout our own journey, some of which are unique to us individually, too. As an example, I am going to go ahead and kick the cocoa. 😦 It’s a sad, sad realization, but I think I have to do it – at least so that I can be sure it’s something I want to continue eating in the long-run. Similarly, we both decided we should cut back on the bananas. Like chocolate, they weren’t technically meant to be included anyway because they are such an oddity in the realm of fruits and vegetables because they have a higher level of natural fructose. They’re also high in fiber, specifically resistant starch, which our bodies cannot absorb. Since fiber is actually one of the more interesting points of observation for both of us, it makes sense we eliminate bananas moving forward.

To be honest, I do wish I could have a coffee. Or a drink. Yep, it’s that kind of day today. I’ve been thinking a lot though about my humanity throughout all of this, and to be honest, I don’t know why or when humans (specifically this human) became so mentally dependent (almost handicapped, it sometimes feels) by particular food groups. It’s a weird, and unpleasant feeling now that I am sitting outside the space of it. I don’t want to feel like I need to eat something that I know will in turn, not make me feel great. Shouldn’t we only ever be eating things that make us feel our best selves? It’s interesting…yet simple, right?

So Day 9 hasn’t been my favorite, but it’s still day by day, and I know it’s for the best. Yes, somewhat completely terrible at times (ok, I am over-dramatic), but for the best. Plus (!!!) on a higher note, my mom and sister are visiting this week/weekend! They get here today. They’re already way in the loop on the diet situation, and so supportive, but I am sure we will still be hitting up some fun spots that will be more than tempting – thus, now is as good as time as any to really toughen up! I am excited to spend time with family, and look forward to challenging myself…and continuing to win! 😉

Day 9: 03/09
Pre-Workout:
Lemon ginger tea
1 dried prune

Workout:
Cardio + arm strength

Morning:
Apple, plum, raspberry, and blueberry smoothie
Overnight Oats + raspberries and blueberries

Afternoon:
Pineapple w/cinnamon
Sea salt dark chocolate
Hu kitchen rotisserie chicken w/roasted sweet potatoes + puffed quinoa
Hu chocolate w/mint
Herbal tea
Dried cranberries

Evening:
Korean BBQ
-beef brisket, pork belly, cow tongue
-lettuce, onion, cabbage
-pear root, salt/pepper + garlic oil
-white rice
Green grapes

Week 2 – Listen To Your Body: My Elimination Experience

I haven’t been sleeping poorly, but the sleep hasn’t been as good as it was the first few nights. Perhaps I’m eating too much sugar too late in the day. I know sugar is typically eliminated from the common elimination diet, but this is MY elimination diet, and so while I’ve never really been much of a sweet-tooth, I didn’t feel the need to completely forbid myself from a sweet now and again. To be clear here, the sugars, or sweeteners rather, that I am consuming are for the most part just in the form of natural raw honey and organic blue agave. There has been the occasional allowance of pure cane sugar or light brown sugar, but I determined early on in my planning that I didn’t really cross paths with sugar enough to worry about going out of my way to avoid it.

Anyway, I’m going to experiment with avoiding sugar at least in the evening moving forward. Further, Brenen and I both decided to eliminate bananas, and I am going to leave the chocolate at the door :(. These are both also noted as common “triggers,” cut out of most elimination experiences, but we didn’t bother at first. To be clear, Brenen claimed that he hopped on this crazy train of mine as a “might as well” opportunity for him to experiment with his reactions to gluten and dairy. He personally hasn’t given up caffeine, (and isn’t that worried about cocoa), but otherwise he is on the same exact restrictions as I am. To be even more clear, I think he mostly just is just in this whole mess as a means to support me ;).

Which of course has to be contributing at least in slight measure to my mood, which has never been better! I know i’ve already mentioned this, but it remains steadily true, and is very profoundly obvious. I am still feeling extremely positive about the whole experience…despite it only being a quarter of the way through and my yearning for coffee and donuts growing everyday 😅 ..”I can do it!”

I’ve been thinking a lot about this concept: listening to your body. I’ve spoken about it before, and so it’s clear I’m a true believer in it – I think it’s fair to say I wouldn’t even be on this current venture if I wasn’t. Part of what makes most people I speak to skeptical of the whole process is “how do you know” when your body feels differently. Perhaps this is something that I’ve spent a lot of time working toward…but perhaps it’s also something that comes natural for each of us, if we let it. I believe our bodies are the only thing we have. Seriously. What else is there guiding you through life? Your brain? Your heart? All a part of your body, my friends! It might seem funny to cut-things-out along the way, but again, that’s why I am so determined to make this process my own! Listening to my headaches and pains and positive vibes and following the right nudges is what is going to make it worthwhile. 

I am back to attending regular physical therapy sessions for my skiing injury, and it’s actually be a great because I feel like I’m getting two workouts in in the mornings. As long as I wake up about 25-30 min earlier than normal, I can still hit the gym and then make it to PT before work. Because of this altered scheduling, I’ve been trying to focus on cardio and legs at the gym so I can save my arm and upper body strength for my therapy. I’ve also noticed the two-a-days (so-to-speak) are leaving me a bit more tired than usual. I usually can stay consistently active with my workout routine but, as you can notice, I’ve skipped a couple days already this week. I can’t say I’m thrilled about it because I am anxious about a potentially over-booked weekend with family visiting (yay!) which usually means my independent time is cut short. I suppose it’s a fair trade-off though. Mom and Taylor get here today and I am soooo excited! The weather has been nice and they are pumped for exploring, despite the trip coinciding with my diet. I’m looking forward to getting some q-time in with them both, and guess it’ll be a nice forced-break from the routine if my body apparently needs it. I’ve always listened to my body, but I feel like for the first time, I can hear her so loud and clear! Cheers to hump-day! 😀

Day 6: 03/06
Pre-Workout:
Hot water w/lemon
1 dried prune

No exercise

Morning:
Overnight oats – no fruit

Afternoon:
Chopt Chicken Tinga – no cheese or tortilla
Hu Almond Fig
Celery + hummus

Evening:
Pasta w/marinara, salmon, mushrooms & zucchini
Fresh mango for dessert

Day 7: 03/07
Pre-Workout:
Hot water w/lemon
1 dried prune (good for the brain)

Workout:
Full Body Strength Training
Rotator Cuff Physical Therapy

Morning:
Kale, blood orange, banana, and almond milk smoothie topped w/chia + flax seed mix
Overnight Oats

Afternoon:
Chop’t Chicken Tinga w/double chicken
Lemon Ginger Herbal Tea

Dinner:
Pasta w/marinara
Herbal tea

 

Day 8: 03/08
Pre-Workout:
Hot water w/lemon
1 dried prune

No Exercise

Morning:
Overnight Oats

Afternoon:
Hu Kitchen 1/4 rotisserie chicken w/roasted market vegetables and pineapple w/cashew butter + cinnamon
Hu chocolate bar w/mint
Lemon Ginger Herbal Tea

Evening:
Pureed sweet potato bowl, w/banana + dark chocolate

The First Weekend: My Elimination Experience

It’s crazy to me that it’s almost 7:30PM (dinner time now), and I’ve only eaten…well…breakfast and lunch. But I’m not starving. The headaches are still sneaking in – never for long anymore though, and barely noticeable. This weekend was great! I expected it to be hard, hell to be honest, I expected it to be impossible. The week I never feared. As I mentioned, I’m used to my morning and afternoon routines at the office and the obstacles surrounding both have been easy enough to overcome. Another major challenge I feared would be the weekend which typically included joining friends for drinks, eating out, and drinking wine, and always included sleeping in past breakfast, drinking coffee, and eating donuts. Sigh…I sure do miss donuts.

Anyway, I feel good! I do, actually, I feel great! (And so does Brenen). The headaches, I’ve decided most definitely are related to  the caffeine. Other than the withdrawal side-effects, so far the biggest change I’ve noticed is my sleep – my uninterrupted, deep, completely rejuvenating sleep. It’s as if my entire being – body, mind, and soul are resting for the first time in my entire life. That’s how I feel when I wake up in the morning. It’s actually incredible and I am positive any explanation I give here will never do the experience justice. I’ve never experienced anything like it, and if anything grows stronger throughout the next couple weeks, I hope it’s my ability to maintain this feeling – to maintain this kind of sleep where I wake up in the morning ready to hop out of bed and literally feel as if I could accomplish anything!

 

Hand in hand, I’m also happier; just all around in a better mood. Brenen and I are getting along wonderfully. Not that we ever don’t, but there’s an energy here like never before. It’s healthy and it’s strong and it’s good. Our darling friends accommodated us on Sunday for an over-due family dinner. We hadn’t gotten together in a while as a whole group, so a couple who live together initiated a Taco Night. Of course, Brenen and I prepared to attend and not be able to eat (so packed a bag of snacks for ourselves), but we were beyond tickled to arrive to a full Make-Your-Own-Taco spread, including a sub station meeting all of our restrictions. What amazingly sweet humans! 🙂 So far, the pain and struggle and temptation have been worth every second of this journey, and discovering the positive impacts on my health has only been a portion of the reward. 😉 

Day 3: 03/03
Pre-Workout:
No exercise

Morning:
Hot water w/lemon
Quick oats w/blueberries, banana, honey, brown sugar, almond milk

Afternoon:
1/2 serving of Muscle Maker grilled chicken + steamed broccoli
Yogi Lemon Ginger Tea
1 C Carrots + Hummus
Hu Kitchen pear, spinach, blueberry smoothie
1/5 Hu Kitchen Crunchy Banana Chocolate Bar

Evening:
Fresh fruit mix + chocolate bars at movies (pictured)

Day 4: 03/04
Pre-Workout:
Hot water w/lemon
GFree Rice cake topped with almond butter + banana

Workout:
Vinyasa yoga + short ab circuit

Morning:
Overnight oats w/almond butter, almond milk, cinnamon, honey, blueberries, and banana

Afternoon:
Grapes, and blueberries
SweetGreen Harvest Bowl w/mesclun, brown rice, sweet potato, apples, chicken, balsamic vinaigrette
1/4 C Home Free Chocolate Cookies
Chamomile Tea

Evening:
Steak grilled w/chimichurri sauce
Mashed cauliflower
Homemade Chimichurri Sauce: olive oil, salt/pepper, cilantro, parsley, garlic, red wine vinegar, crushed red pepper
Sweets by Chloe (shared with Brenen) Matcha Chia Pudding + blueberries, and a chocolate cupcake
Javea chocolate coconut ice cream
Decaf Lotus Blossom Tea

Day 5: 03/05
Pre-Workout:
Hot water w/lemon
GFree Rice cake topped with almond butter + banana
A few apple + kiwi slices

Workout:
Full body work out + arm circuit

Afternoon:
Juice Generation Kale Supa Dupa Greens: spinach, kale, parsley, romaine, cucumber, celery, lemon & apple
Baked Oatmeal: almond milk, apple sauce, mashed banana, baking soda, lemon, salt, topped with blueberries, blackberries, and banana
1 dried prune

Evening:
Taco Salad: plain ground turkey, tomatoes, onions, GFree taco seasoning, lettuce, pick de gallo, salsa, guacamole, terra chips
Blueberries + Raspberries
Hu Chocolate Mint Bar (Shared with Brenen)
Chamomile Tea w/lemon

Day 2: My Elimination Experience

Dinner last night was great! I’m already having fun making my new creations, but I can also already see all the work getting old quickly. I have to make sure I am staying a few steps ahead of myself, purchasing ingredients that can be useful in any recipe, and making sure I am constantly aware of my work/social calendar regarding the days I won’t have as much time to spend hours in the kitchen.

It’s day 2 of the elimination experience, but I haven’t forgotten it’s day 5 without coffee. How could I forget when My. Head. Hurts. The withdrawal is still in full swing, and my headaches are still coming in hot. As I already commented on, it’s extremely evident that I should not have cut off the caffeine intake cold turkey. It seems everything around me triggers a headache. My alarm in the morning, the air being cooler than yesterday, having a close conversation with a colleague, the Indian music playing over the speakers in my cab at this moment…everything 😩 I just want a coffee. Honestly, it’s that intense of a feeling – as if I truly need the source of the issue to make the issue go away. And I’m hungry!! I’m still eating A LOT throughout the day, which I expect to decrease over the next couple weeks, but I snack constantly and still find myself starving by dinner. 

I was considering today that I may not be eating enough calories, but as I reflect on my food journal, that can’t be the case. It’s interesting to observe – I will continued to be most intrigued by the volume of foods and how it changes throughout this process. And despite all this intake, I still feel weak by the end of the day. I think maybe my next factor to research just presented itself…but before looking further into that, I think I will lie down.

Brenen prepared dinner tonight. Well, by prepared I mean reheated my prep from last night. Not my pasta, but I actually prepared a Meatball & Kale Sauté specifically for tonight, knowing I wouldn’t have time to fully make the meal today. It was delicious, and filling, and the reheating process didn’t affect the way it tasted at all! Very smart of me, if I do say so myself. I’m a smart eliminating-dieter. It seemed all my aforementioned exhaustion and sluggishness disappeared once we ate, and I didn’t really find myself overwhelmingly tired after dinner. Still, as soon as I got comfy in bed and told my mind to go to sleep, it did.

Here’s the recap from Day 2, and you can check out my meatball and pasta recipes I’ve mentioned so far if you’re interested! 🙂 Working on getting a running meal-plan journal up by the end of this week! Thanks for following along…

Day 2: 03/02
Pre-workout:
Hot water w/lemon
Rice cake topped with almond butter + banana

Workout:
Short stretch session

Morning:
Quick oats made w/hot water, and added honey, cinnamon, almond milk, berries, and banana

Afternoon:
Muscle Maker Smoothie made with pear, pineapple, and mango
Plain grilled chicken with steamed broccoli
Yogi Lemon Ginger Tea
1 Free2Be Dark Chocolate Sun Cup
1 Trade Joe’s Organic Applesauce Cup with Cinnamon
1 C Carrots + Trader Joe’s Organic Hummus

Evening:
Turkey Meatball & Kale Sauté
1 Kiwi + 1 Blood Orange

Day 1: My Elimination Experience

Day one and already I’ve been greeted with some pleasant (and some not-so-pleasant) surprises. As I mentioned, this was not an “on a whim” decision – a lot of planning and thought back this diet, so naturally it was a shock when I woke up this morning to the announcement of a dedicated partner. “Might as well,” one of many seemingly lazy, yet amazing mantras often sported by my boyfriend was the empowering string of words that completely calmed my admitted increasing nerves.

The day went by smoothly for the most part. I didn’t have to change much about my morning or afternoon because I am used to eating overnight oats for breakfast, and usually order a salad for lunch. I had to accommodate some ingredients for the oats – making sure to eliminate any traced of gluten or soy, and when ordering lunch, I omitted cheese and used plain olive oil and vinegar as a dressing. I know a lot of people use this as their go-to dressing for salads but I actually hated the taste! I will definitely need to figure out something different, but will likely stick to one of my go-to favorites.

I already miss chocolate (obviously) and coffee. Technically, it’s day four without caffeine. It was this evening that I noticed I feel lighter yet a little sluggish at the same time. I’ve had a lot of (terribly smelly) gas throughout the day. You know the type: “silent but deadly,” haha. And it was walking around this evening that I noticed a pretty cranky all over body-ache creeping in. I certainly need to start planning further ahead for dinner because I am starving!  Here’s a peak at my first day, and my first dinner, but I do plan to have all of my meals/prep available soon! Stay tuned 🙂

Day 1: 03/01
Workout:
Eliptical + Legs Strength Training

Morning:
Hot water w/lemon
Sprouted & peeled almonds
Clementine
Overnight Oats w/almond base + blueberries

Afternoon:
Just Salad – Mesclun/kale, quinoa, dried cranberries, apples, grilled chicken, oil/balsamic vinegar
Clementine
Banana
Peach Herbal Tea

Evening:
Avocado, Tuna, Zucchini pasta, seasoned with garlic salt and lemon juice, cooked in olive oil, topped w/a red pepper, mushroom, cauliflower puree + mushrooms
Leftover red pepper + Hummus before bed

Crying in the Steamroom

Today didn’t feel like hump-day: making it to Wednesday is supposed to be a triumph. I finally made it to my first yoga class since my injury. The doctor told me i could go back to the gym on Monday, but there was a laundry emergency, and last night I had a doctors appointment. If it were up to me I would have been back on the mat last week. I was honestly proud of myself for resisting the urge just to stretch! But I wanted to heal, and I knew I needed to be patient for that to happen. So I was patient. I even tacked on a couple additional days, and I set my alarm last night for 5:15am: excited, and relieved as if I knew moving again would make me feel so much better!

I woke before my alarm went off, and at first I couldn’t figure out why. I laid in bed for a few minutes but then sprang up to get ready for class, and it was as if all at once I got hit with a ton of bricks – directly over my left shoulder. I felt pressure and pain, searing and stabbing in places I’d never felt pain before. I knew it was this injury though; it was letting me know it was still there. I got dressed anyway, powered through my morning routine, and even had time to whip up a piece of peanut butter toast on my way out the door. Nothing was keeping me home from he gym another day. By the time I made it to class, I had considered at least a dozen times already to just go back home. I didn’t get a seat on the train and was knocked the whole ten minute commute. I must’ve been nervous because I somehow worked up a sweat as I was preparing to settle into a comfortable seat. Long story short, I realized only after a loose few downward facing dogs that I needed to stop. The first one hurt like hell, but I held it with strength. The second one hurt worse than the first and I had to bend to readjust my arms after only one breath. Finally, on my third attempt to meet in an otherwise familiar position, my body said no mas. I collapsed to my knees and fought back tears.

“I’ve never been here,” I thought to myself, “I’ve never struggled like this with yoga.” Of course, I’ve struggled with learning a new posture, or meditating after a long day, or being able to remove my long day from my practice. But to me, all of those struggles are learning struggles. I love learning more and more ways in which I can optimize my practice. I’m so obsessed with it all, that those struggles aren’t struggles to me. They’re me developing my passion. Of course it’s no easy feat, and so I don’t expect it to be. In fact, I prefer when it isn’t. But this struggle is different. I’m not in control of it and I finally realized it. When I hit the mat today, it hit me. And I felt hopeless, and lost.

I spent the rest of the class landing in child’s pose anytime a posture required the support of my arms or hands, and I directed my body very slowly and very mindfully between any postures that’s didn’t. As I moved, I breathed. I was so angry. I moved a little more, and I breathed a little more. I was so frustrated. More moving and more breathing, but when it was time to transition to savasana, it was certainly time to lie down. I knew lying down would be risky, as this injury affects the muscle used to sit up, but I didn’t care at the moment. It was exactly what I needed, and it felt amazing.

I realized after class (crying in the steam room), that I was being selfish. I wanted to go back to work so badly, and I wanted to push through the class, despite the pain. My body didn’t want those things. My body was enjoying the rest and needed more of it. That’s why laying down was the best part of the class this morning. It was when my body finally chilled out for a second, and in turn, I felt super relaxed. My body was even yelling at me for waking up earlier than I have been. I didn’t hear a thing because I was listening to whatever was going on in my head, which was “I’ll be fine,” and “I can’t wait!”

It can be extremely frustrating not being in control, especially when it’s something like your body. I don’t want to stay away from the gym, but I do want to be able to work out again and feel healthy. So I have to take the backseat. It’s been less than a day, and I’m already stressed about it, but I know it’s for the best. My first-favorite yoga instructor was from Australia and had the best non-Australian accent and the best mantra: “listen to your body.” He used to say it between every posture. Literally, every other breath. I always felt as if I was listening, but maybe she’s never been as loud as she was today.